Monday, May 28, 2012
did my first restoration in a real patient today! it was freaky and stressful omg. ): hope my patient was ok with it (: feeling v inadequate as usual. heh. that's the thing about dental sch omg, it destroys your ego to the point that you can come up with all sorts of criticism about yourself, without anyone having to point it out to you ): now i'm gonna start believing that every bit of work i do is not good enough... a teeny bit of the perfectionism disease is getting to me alr i think ):
i also realise i like taking things apart more than putting them back together. another reason why restorative dentistry doesn't suit me oops.
on another note(haha pun not intended!) i really do enjoy piano accompaniment pracs after sch even though i'm always dead tired after sch ): i feel like my soul can get some release after being permanently stifled. i think the 2nd movt of Bach's double violin concerto is beautiful ((: it's so breathtakingly calm and peaceful and melodious ((: the sort of piece that makes my soul feel like it's soaring hah (so abstract, but i really can't think of a better way to put it)
hmmm i wonder what it would feel like if my soul left my body? maybe i'd just be an empty shell with vacant eyes and all. a bit like a dead body hahaha (:
